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New Years Resolutions 2014
Cut down aggressively on the use of the word “people” in the generic sense (as in, “people do x" or "I’m tired of people doing z”) as a way of avoiding specificity, or avoiding offending sensibilities.
Instead, name names. Allow yourself to be impolitic, to be a little bit reckless. And be reckless not as a way of blowing off steam, not as a safety valve, but as a way of confronting head-on your own fear of being disliked, and seeing what might come of that.
Develop at least a little more entitlement toward the world. Model for your students of color how they might do so as well.
Reminder: You’ve seen too many faculty members say that they’ll do politics when they get tenure, then remain every bit as depoliticized upon getting it. If you have to wait for official protection to get involved in politics, there won’t be a politics worthy of the name waiting for you on the other side. And don’t believe the hype; you won’t have more time if you manage to get tenure. You’ll have more administrative responsibilities, more big courses, more letters of recommendation to write.
Spend a lot more time figuring out what you really care about in a deep sense and fight for its place in your life and its right to exist and flourish in the world.
Write. Every day.
guys I just finished an article so here’s a tired selfie.
rewatching passenger 57 just for the “always bet on black” line.
self-study in side-sweepage
Guys I really don’t know what it means to be a professor.
From a reading response from my Intro to Lesbian and Gay Studies course (the same one where this happened), 1/28/2004:
I want to take [Lisa] Duggan’s point [in “History’s Gay Ghetto: The Contractions of Growth in Lesbian and Gay History”] a little further. If there has been a ghetto created in history by the invisibility of queerness and queer people in mainstream discourse, how do the everyday categories that we use either perpetuate or subvert this situation?For example, let’s look at our class.Our Introduction to Lesbian and Gay Studies class has been placed in the Women’s Studies department.What does that mean?After reading Duggan, I wonder if placing it in the Women’s Studies department plays a part in the ghettoization of lesbian and gay history.Does the newer and less accepted discipline of lesbian and gay studies need to be couched in an already-existing disciplinary category in order to be considered legitimate?Do we run the risk of rendering gay and lesbian studies less legitimate in only considering them an extension of women’s studies?Discursive and disciplinary violence work mostly through invisible means and mechanisms, and I wonder if we are re-creating a form of disciplinary violence in the process of legitimating history.
It’s disconcerting, the realization that questions I was asking when I was twenty remain with me in embryonic form ten years later.
1. Deadline: Three months away: Hell to the yes. I’m good. Imma even make an outline because I’m so on top of my—wait but first lemme watch this Game of Thrones tho.
2. Deadline: Three weeks away. Okay, really need to get started. Lemme go the library to make sure that my citational world is comprehensive as possible.
3. Deadline: Two weeks away: After seven consecutive days at the library and on amazon, I haven’t written anything. Home bookshelves, meanwhile, are a seismic catastrophe waiting to happen, on some:
4. Deadline: Five days away: Every time I sit down to write what I’m actually assigned to do I lose focus, and all of a sudden I’m possessed by inspiration to work on that tumblr post I’ve been meaning to get to.
5. Deadline: Two days away: I don’t even know if what I’m doing counts as pacing anymore.
6. Deadline: Two hours away: DEAR XXXX SO SORRY IMA REALLY NEED AN EXTENSION THO.
7. Deadline: One week ago (one week until extension deadline): Fetal.
8. Deadline: One week and five days ago (two days until extension deadline): OMG INSPIRATION
9. Deadline: One week and six days ago (one day until extension deadline): THREE THOUSAND WORDS OVER LIMIT HOW DO I CUT OMGGGGG
10. Deadline: One week, six days, seventeen hours ago (seven hours until extension deadline): HI TUMBLR!!! <3 <3 <3
questions we’re no longer used to asking ourselves.
just chortled out loud in the archives.
not to complain, or to make this all about me, but damn. a girl can’t even use twitter just to rant and talk shit anymore. folks is watchin. and they take screenshots of my typos.
History does not disclose the name of the first black person dragged onto a slave ship, the first black person held in newly constructed prisons, or the first black person forcibly recruited to work on a colonial plantation. But black people have been arriving late ever since, hoping that the slavers have left, the ships traveled beyond the horizon, the whip silenced, the work done, the suffering gone.
Black time—whether you call it colored people time (CPT) or African timing (AT) or the deliciousness of syncopation—black time is about delay, interruption, break: strategic lateness.
Black time is long time, deep time, waiting time, excavated time, time around time. The not-here, the not-yet-there, the it-will-be-coming, the it-has-been-to-come, the it’s-not-wasn’t-yet, the it-was-just-here-yet-to-be-now. The fold, the crease, the wrinkle, the tick that does not tock. The tock that does not talk. The silence that does not break. The breaking that will not be broken. The.
Black time is hungry time. Ravenous time. Gluttonous time. Cannibal time.
Black time is waiting time, time after the reservation, time after other people’s time, time cut by other people’s time, time as didn’t-see-you, time as can-you-wait, time as you-again, time as I-don’t-have-time-for-this-shit.
Black time is dropped consonants, slipped sounds, skipped beats, don’t-wanna-ain’t-gonna-coz-it-don’t-make-no-difference time. Black time is learned time, doing time, time done, time-to-do, time-never-done, time-undone. Time-served, time-to-serve, time-serving, time-unserved, time-put-off, time-for-time, pipeline-time, skipping-time, cut-time, time-cut, cutting-time.
I haven’t seen you for a minute.
Sorry I’m posting this late. I was running behind.
– Black Time, Keguro Macharia